Walls

"another wall gone. let's use the stones from the wall to pave the path to God."
Rose's comment on Annette's blog got me thinking about what my path would look like if I tore down the walls in my life.
I want to tear down the wall of self hate that keeps me from believing that I'm loved and beautiful. I want to tear down the walls that have been built between me and God every time I've compromised. I want to tear down the walls of insecurity that hold me back from being who I really am. I want to tear down the walls of anger-- anger at myself, at those who have hurt me, and at God. I want to tear down the walls of perfectionism that I've carefully constructed to make everyone think that my life is wonderful. I want to tear down the walls of fear that bind me to what is "safe". I want to tear down the walls that I have put up every time I've been betrayed or left for the next best thing. I want to tear down the walls of timidity so that I can stand up for what I believe in without being afraid or ashamed. I want to tear down the walls of self consciousness, so that I can dance down my newly paved path like nobody's watching.
Somebody get me a sledgehammer.